Not for Germany though :) I couldn't decide for a long time when I realized that going on vacation after all this would actually mean putting myself first again. So I did the right thing, what my psychologist and my friends wanted me to do for a while now, packed up some stuff and leave on vacation - and I did it for ME.
It feels good, being abroad, not worrying about anyone or anything. It feels good to do what I want. It feels good to be a guest and be served to. It feels good to sit empty-headed simply enjoying the sun. Well, at least it felt good for the first couple of day, then the guilt came back onto my mind, I have to write a paper, I have to work on my final thesis, I have to work on the project, I have to do my job ... Arghh!!! When did those carefree years gone by?? I'm anything but old, I don't even think of myself as an adult, yet for last couple of years I have to count by hand every single time one asks me how old I am. How fast things change!
Oh well, I worry again about all the stupid little things that eat on our health every day but I having a blast. I LOVE to travel!!! I love to photograph - and I'll share some of my favorite pictures with you! :)
It feels good, being abroad, not worrying about anyone or anything. It feels good to do what I want. It feels good to be a guest and be served to. It feels good to sit empty-headed simply enjoying the sun. Well, at least it felt good for the first couple of day, then the guilt came back onto my mind, I have to write a paper, I have to work on my final thesis, I have to work on the project, I have to do my job ... Arghh!!! When did those carefree years gone by?? I'm anything but old, I don't even think of myself as an adult, yet for last couple of years I have to count by hand every single time one asks me how old I am. How fast things change!
Oh well, I worry again about all the stupid little things that eat on our health every day but I having a blast. I LOVE to travel!!! I love to photograph - and I'll share some of my favorite pictures with you! :)
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