I'm back! :)

It's been two months!!! Two extremely good months charged with extremely great people and events! Some really nice spring weather and some really cold days of rain. A bit of sadness and tears, much more of happiness and laughter.


My daily routine got much busier even if I'm still unemployed. I enjoy one day at a time and am proud of myself for moving on stronger and better. Still, there's much more work I have to do on myself and I can't just stop with this work half the way through. I'm not quitting with this. So I'm doing some readings and writing and talking at my amazing Al-Anon group and even more amazing therapist.


I believe I've turned a new page in my life. I'm looking forward to each day and each test life is putting me through. I got through anger, hate and blame towards my parents. I now love them for being who they are. They still piss me off every now and then but they only hurt me a little and very seldomly, only when I let them, as to realize which lessons I have yet to learn.


My dad is still drinking. Still thinking he is doing fine with it and that he doesn't need help. My mom is still the victim, always feeling sorry for herself and looking for such type of attention. It's their life, their right.


I'm living my own, fighting my own fears, never bored or tired of it :) I'll try to fit blogging back on to my regular schedule ;)

A pointless post.

I haven't written anything in way too long and feel ashamed! There's so much to write, I just don't either feel like writing or I don't take the time to do it. I'm having a great time! Which is in my opinion the best reason not to do your obligations but it sucks just as well - if I share all my sorrow, anguish, fears and anger with me, why the fuck I don't share my happiness and pure joy with you? Whoever you are reading these words, you deserve to be treated well and share my positive feelings especially because you've gotten that far mostly reading about how crapy it is to be a daughter of an alcoholic.

Which is far from whol and only truth. I am happy to be my dad's daughter, he's a wonderul person and I would want any other dad! I told him that!

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It's been two months!!! Two extremely good months charged with extremely great people and events! Some really nice spring weather and some really cold days of rain. A bit of sadness and tears, much more of happiness and laughter.

My daily routine got much busier even if I'm still unemployed. I enjoy one day at a time and am proud of myself for moving on stronger and better. Still, there's much more work I have to do on myself and I can't just stop with this work half the way through. I'm not quitting with this. So I'm doing some readings and writing and talking at my amazing Al-Anon group and even more amazing therapist.

I believe I've turned a new page in my life. I'm looking forward to each day and each test life is putting me through. I got through anger, hate and blame towards my parents. I now love them for being who they are. They still piss me off every now and then but they only hurt me a little and very seldomly, only when I let them, as to realize which lessons I have yet to learn.

My dad is still drinking. Still thinking he is doing fine with it and that he doesn't need help. My mom is still the victim, always feeling sorry for herself and looking for such type of attention. It's their life, their right.

I'm living my own life, fighting my own fears, never bored or tired of it :) I'll try to fit blogging back on to my regular schedule ;)