One of my dad's closest friends died. Many years of heavy drinking took its toll. He was one of dad's excuses for not having real problems with alcohol.
I am too far away. I don't know what to do. I feel my dad's sadness just as much as my friend's who lost his dad to this evil that ruins our lives.
I share pain and tears with them and I have absolutely no idea how to express my feelings to them. I am too far away, I can't do this over the phone what else the internet. I don't know what to do.
I don't want to be alone, I don't want my friends' pity, I don't want their ignorance. I don't want neither their hugs nor them trying to make me laugh. I don't want them to try to do anything.
I just want to keep on walking until I get through the no man's land and feel again what I am to do.
I just don't want to feel so alone when there's so many people around me.
I just need somebody who'd really understand, who's feel how I feel.
What's happening next?!
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