How are you? I've been very well and have been thinking of writing couple new posts since the last post. The event with mom got me thinking even more (just when I thought I should stop thinking and try to be more active instead) about my family, my childhood, my present, my future ...
And on top of that it seems like I did turn a bit more active page, so I just can't get myself back to sitting and writing down my thoughts and feelings.
Today I finally did sit down ... and stared at the screen. Time flies. Iron rusts. And my writing skills need more practice to start again. So for now, I just wanted to emphasize one thing:
My 'argument' with mom started and ended with that previous post. Mom doesn't even know about how she hurt me with her words, I said nothing to her. It was something I had to clear up with myself. I have to be tougher not only in not letting others hurt me but also in dealing with such problems when they occur. As it hurts most when your closest are involved, I was extremely angry the other day.
For all together 3 hours.
No matter what my posts say, you should always know: I only have one family and I love them all, no matter how much and how often they can piss me off. It's the way families work, isn't it?
If I wouldn't care about my family, I wouldn't be writing this blog. And I wouldn't care about how time flies.
And on top of that it seems like I did turn a bit more active page, so I just can't get myself back to sitting and writing down my thoughts and feelings.
Today I finally did sit down ... and stared at the screen. Time flies. Iron rusts. And my writing skills need more practice to start again. So for now, I just wanted to emphasize one thing:
My 'argument' with mom started and ended with that previous post. Mom doesn't even know about how she hurt me with her words, I said nothing to her. It was something I had to clear up with myself. I have to be tougher not only in not letting others hurt me but also in dealing with such problems when they occur. As it hurts most when your closest are involved, I was extremely angry the other day.
For all together 3 hours.
- First I wrote that post and got it out of me.
- Then I turned the music on (very loud).
- Texted a friend for an advice on how to get rid of anger.
- Then danced, jumped, sang ...
- and after 3 hours I was almost as good as new, just better.
No matter what my posts say, you should always know: I only have one family and I love them all, no matter how much and how often they can piss me off. It's the way families work, isn't it?
If I wouldn't care about my family, I wouldn't be writing this blog. And I wouldn't care about how time flies.
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