He didn't.
From New Year's resolutions to denial ....
Going to Al-Anon meetings clashed with my decision to cut the bs/smart-a**ing to absolutely everybody including those who really don't want to hear it. In the latter segment falls my family, which -I feel- is tired of me always bringing this topic of 'alcoholism is a desease that can be treated' aboard. My New Year's resolution (well, one of them) of course is not to do that anymore ... and I'm doing my best to keep it. Just like a true AA - one day at a time, one conversation at a time. If noone asks I don't start babbling about, no matter what.
I'd say I'm about 60 % efficient in it this month. Yet it seems like every time I fail and blurt out something before I can stop myself - well, it seems like nobody noticed I was ever quiet at all! This has been quite a harsh resolution so far!
Anyway, I am holding on to it when it comes to Al-Anon. When dad asks me, where I go, I answer: I have an Al-Anon meeting. Followed by a dumb but expectant-for-me-to-tell-everything-about-it look is silence on both sides. And of I go.
If he ever turned the first page of those Al-Anon books I brought home for me, and whoever might be interested in reading, I wouldn't know. But since my mom joined me for the last meeting ... I can't say precisely what he knows about where we were, except that he decided he's against us going there. For those living with an addict - I'm sure you can imagine the determined negative aura around him, saying: Grrr... They're doing something against me and this 'problem' that I DON'T have!
PS: Would someone please help me with abbreviations for profanities - my English level can't seem to move up from 'bs' and 'wtf', which just aren't enough when there's some shitty going on in life! ;)
From New Year's resolutions to denial ....
Going to Al-Anon meetings clashed with my decision to cut the bs/smart-a**ing to absolutely everybody including those who really don't want to hear it. In the latter segment falls my family, which -I feel- is tired of me always bringing this topic of 'alcoholism is a desease that can be treated' aboard. My New Year's resolution (well, one of them) of course is not to do that anymore ... and I'm doing my best to keep it. Just like a true AA - one day at a time, one conversation at a time. If noone asks I don't start babbling about, no matter what.
Anyway, I am holding on to it when it comes to Al-Anon. When dad asks me, where I go, I answer: I have an Al-Anon meeting. Followed by a dumb but expectant-for-me-to-tell-everything-about-it look is silence on both sides. And of I go.
If he ever turned the first page of those Al-Anon books I brought home for me, and whoever might be interested in reading, I wouldn't know. But since my mom joined me for the last meeting ... I can't say precisely what he knows about where we were, except that he decided he's against us going there. For those living with an addict - I'm sure you can imagine the determined negative aura around him, saying: Grrr... They're doing something against me and this 'problem' that I DON'T have!PS: Would someone please help me with abbreviations for profanities - my English level can't seem to move up from 'bs' and 'wtf', which just aren't enough when there's some shitty going on in life! ;)
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